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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

14.06.2025 01:46

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

But it wasn’t much.

Why do I feel so down and not happy anymore? I also feel really tired and non-motivated. Is that normal for someone to feel that way?

(And it was in our own minds.)

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

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And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I write beautiful poetry .

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Im still living with it.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I could never make a relationship work though!

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His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I will be 64.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

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But, we were locked up after school.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

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I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

We were not on the streets..

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He resisted the act ,that day.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Why do some children hate their parents?

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

All the time i was locked up.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Put me off passion for life!!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

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One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I waited trembling.

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I couldn’t, believe it.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I was very sick at this time too.

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

So, i spoilt her more .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Comes on , in middle age.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I think the readers, may guess!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Would this be the day?

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Especially a lifetime of it.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

What did i know ?

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

My family never makes their pension either.

So whats the point in blame.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

He knew the spot.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

This is soul school!.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I was 9 years of age.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Ive learnt so much.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

She was in good health!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

She wouldn,t have been !

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I don,t even have a pension.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

She married twice! .

Was to survive, this bastard.

Who then, do I blame.?

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I was scared of men, in general

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I have no regrets .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I said to her

Why did i forgive my father ?

I was seconnd youngest,

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

When she asked me how she looked .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

My life is so biszare .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

But ive been too sick for many years..

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

She loved him until the end.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

She found it foreign!.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

One cannot live in the past .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

And i lived it daily.

It was going to be , some day.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

We all went to grammer schools

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years