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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 11:53

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

We all went to grammer schools

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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One cannot hold on to bitterness.

This is soul school!.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

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She found it foreign!.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

When she asked me how she looked .

Is it okay for a wife who comes home from a date to tell her husband what she did?

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

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Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

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I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

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I never cut or harmed myself..

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

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So whats the point in blame.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

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I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

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I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

All the time i was locked up.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

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My life is so biszare .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Im still living with it.

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Especially a lifetime of it.

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My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Was to survive, this bastard.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

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He knew the spot.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Would this be the day?

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

She wouldn,t have been !

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He resisted the act ,that day.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I have no regrets .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

She was in good health!

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Put me off passion for life!!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She married twice! .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I write beautiful poetry .

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I waited trembling.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

And i lived it daily.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

What did i know ?

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

My family never makes their pension either.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Why did i forgive my father ?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

She loved him until the end.

I was seconnd youngest,

We were not on the streets..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

As i do to all so called friends.?

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I was scared of men, in general

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I don,t even have a pension.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I was 9 years of age.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I was very sick at this time too.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

It was going to be , some day.

But, we were locked up after school.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

But it wasn’t much.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

So, i spoilt her more .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

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I said to her

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I will be 64.

Comes on , in middle age.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I think the readers, may guess!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I couldn’t, believe it.

One cannot live in the past .

I could never make a relationship work though!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Who then, do I blame.?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

But ive been too sick for many years..

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Ive learnt so much.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.